Life has a real funny way of teaching us lessons and building us up in the process. Tragic experiences can really mentally break a human down to the point of them not understanding the need to love themselves. I can definitely identify with how that feels. I lost my mother at the age of seven, I have no relationship with my father because he doesn't have an interest in knowing me and to say I have been "hurt" by "family" would be a complete understatement. Years ago, I battled with the lowest of the low, low self esteem. In addition to that, I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression after losing my grandmother who meant EVERYTHING to me. I allowed people to walk all over me and talk to me any type of way. Speaking up for myself made me feel uncomfortable. Unbelievable right? My choice in men was terrible and thinking back on it I have to laugh at the irony in me choosing men who were just like my father: insecure, childish, lacking in love and straight up lost. I guess I found comfort in what I knew... until I realized it wasn't healthy for me. I chose a relationship with GOD and decided to leave it all behind. That was step 1. I always knew who God was but to have a relationship with him is different. Feeling his presence is an experience in itself and it changed my life forever. Overtime, I began to peep certain traits within myself and I fell in love with myself. There was nothing forced about it, it just happened. I then figured out what my passion was ALTHOUGH it was right in front of me the whole time. I was just so distracted by all of the things I had to let go of. Following that, my purpose was revealed to me. Through this journey, I learned about who I am and accepting myself felt amazing. Self love is knowing and loving God. Self love is accepting your flaws and everything that makes you, you. Self love is making decisions that won't jeopardize your well-being. Self love is detaching yourself from any and everything that is not healthy for you mentally or physically. Self love is simply choosing YOU.
We don't have much control over the life challenges that are thrown in our faces BUT it is our choice to let it either make us or break us. Love yourself enough to let it all MAKE you and always remember you have power over it all. xoxo